babies and heaven.

thinking out loud and being transparent with what’s in my mind, and this is the place i do that! sometimes it’s so hard for me to verbalize things, and when i try, it doesn’t make any sense. so that’s when i write. because then it’s out of my head. ha!

much on my mind. people whom i care for.  i wish i could constantly have my mind racing with rainbows and flowers and all the sweet things we have been blessed with. but alas, i’m not able to do that some days. not sure what it is. maybe it’s the fact that the past few and the next couple weeks are madness. a good madness that gives me smiles because of the laughter my kids will be having in those moments. but, i still think of people that have pain. and i hope their pain is lessening with each passing day.

so…i write…

why do babies go to heaven?
the tears, the anguish the pain.
wondering who’s to blame.
was there something I could have done?
questions going on and on.
why can’t we hold them, squeeze them, love them?
why can’t we keep them here?
it’s not the plan, there’s a bigger plan, but why oh why.
questions i can never answer. the question still remains.
why must they go and we stay here, how can we survive with out them by our side?

we will. we will be strong. somehow – someway.

not today, not tomorrow and maybe not anytime soon.
but we will, we have the strength. we must have the strength.
they are gone, they have the renewed strength above. they are happy, now it’s our turn.
we will never forget them, nor will we move on. we just move to the side now and find the way to turn.

the journey seems forever, yet our dream will come true. to hold a sweet baby, one that’s just like you…

linking up with just write this week.