just write. me.

There are some days throughout the month where I just sit.  I stare into the distance and think…. What I’m thinking about, I truly am not sure.  Nothing destructive or anything like that.  Just a whole lot of nothing…

I feel as though I am one of those people in the commercials – you know, the ones with the overly dramatic, melancholy music…where the dog brings a toy to the owner and the owner just sits.  I find myself feeling more bad for the dog some days than I do the person feeling “down”.

It’s like my head is in a cloud. Some days I’m irritable, others just a bump on the log.  Some days I am fine.

I do not consider myself depressed, however the word does cross my mind from time to time.  I know that my circumstance is directly related to my hormones.  Oh these HORMONES!  And this lovely Michigan weather.  And, my thyroid.  Can’t wait to get this thyroid under control again. Just waiting on results to find out if it’s off and how much it’s off.  Waiting. Waiting. And waiting some more.  I don’t want to medicate, however if it comes to that I am not opposed.

I read over on Emily’s blog today

just write.

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3 Comments

  1. Oh girl….I know this feeling all too well.
    It does have some to do with the thyroid….
    I hope you can get it all figured out too….it is sooo frustrating…
    Have changed doses so many times I still don’t think it’s right…
    I need to get more blood work done…
    I am looking into a more natural way of treating it….

  2. I too struggle with this. I only had thyroid problems while pregnant, but I need to get them checked again. I have suffered with depression my whole life…don’t be scared to get treatment for it! Do what you need to do to feel better. 🙂
    Your girls are beautiful!

  3. Depression is definitely in my family. It’s so hard to live with depression. It’s so hard to watch someone else live through depression while in denial of it.

    Depression stinks! In a society where we are surrounded by satisfaction, how can we be dissatisfied?

    It goes so much deeper than our stuff. And it’s ugly.